Monthly Archives: February 2011

Open Eyes

What a crazy fucked up ride..

Why do I never get the urge to hide?

You’re dipping toes into the sea..

I’m diving into spring tides of insanity..

Shoot me I am bullet proof..

Watch me as my wings wave off another roof..

How can you create your dreams

with what ifs, maybes , buts and all those might have beens?

 

Ok, so I have lived it hard..

I can’t imagine never having danced and laughed..

I’ve opened doors and seen the light,,

Had pretty colours swirling in my head all night

and blown my ego to the sky

with caterpillar lines to make a grown man cry..

I’ve smoked into dysfunctional

but these wings, they’ve saved me from that final fall..

 

So I’ll keep flying

while you keep dying

and I won’t apologise..

And I’m still smiling

while you sit crying

and you still seem so surprised

that you’re deflating

while you sit waiting

to feel your own sunrise

as I’m swimming

to another new beginning

with these open eyes..

 

Ok, so I have made a mess

on my way to making my own happiness..

But better that than wondering

if what I’m sat here with will be my everything..

My hand is there for you to take..

The choice to sleep or fly is only yours to make..

But I’m guessing sleep you will

though don’t forget the world you’re on ain’t standing still..

 

Don’t think I don’t appreciate

the beauty that surrounds you as you sit and wait..

I’ve held mountains, felt the sea

and walked among the ruins as they’ve talked to me..

So why are you afraid to feel

your path ? To take that perfect leap and make it real?

Dazzling horizons are

whispering my name, and I have come this far..

 

So I’ll keep flying

while you keep dying

and I won’t apologise..

And I’m still smiling

while you sit crying

and you still seem so surprised

that you’re deflating

while you sit waiting

to feel your own sunrise

as I’m swimming

to another new beginning

with these open eyes..

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Weirdos in my Inbox

I was messing on facebook

Like you do

When my notifications said

There’s a message for you

‘Nice ink’ it read

From some random guy

I checked him out , we

Had a mutual friend so I

Replied saying ‘thanks’

And thought no more of it

Til he messaged me back with

A photo of his dick..

..blocked..

I used to play word games

With this bloke online

We never used the chatbox

Well, there wasn’t really time..

We’d play against the clock

It was always a good game

Then he PM’d me one day

To ask if that was my real name

‘Yeh it is’ I said, not seeing

Anything out of place

Til he asked if I’d shout it

While farting in his face..

..blocked..

When that little red one appears

In the middle

Is it a mate, or spam,

Or someone wanting to fiddle

With their bits

Over my tits

Or a pic of someone’s cock?

Man, I’m bored of weirdos in my inbox..

There was this one

Who just wouldn’t stop

He started a new profile

Every time I hit the block

A mechanic from Bristol

Who was looking for a dom

Not on occasions but

All day long

I took the piss to start with

But that soon passed

When he said he needed punishing

And fucking up the arse..

..blocked..a lot..

Over on myspace

It wasn’t any better

Got this email once..well

More a woe is me letter

About this man’s life

And how shit it had been

I replied with some nice words

And then he came clean

Would I sit on his face, fully clothed

For loads of money?

He was gone when I replied

‘I only wear PVC honey’..

..cock..

When that little red one appears

In the middle

Is it a mate, or spam,

Or someone wanting to fiddle

With their bits

Over my tits

Or a pic of someone’s cock?

Man, I’m bored of weirdos in my inbox..

Ok so it isn’t all just

Sexual freaks

I had a feminazi stalker

That went on for weeks and weeks

I get hassle from the EDL

Trying to make me ‘see the light’

Death threats from the BNP

I give them hell, they bite..

Messages from exes scorned

Cuz their ego took a blow

But the worst ones are the drunken

Late night filth from folks I know!

..fuck em..


Seeing Red

I’ve got that sinking gut thing

As I wonder if we ever will

Prop up the same bar again

Or fight over some restaurant bill

Though not like some bitter lovers

You were just a friend of mine

But this conquering divide won’t heal

Not even with time..

You’re like somebody else now

A someone somewhere in my mind

I loved you like a sister

But I can’t see how we find rewind

There’s no agree to differ

In this twisted bloody game

That fantasy of hate you’re breeding

Doesn’t come with any shame..

You surround yourself with ‘angels’

As I watch you flying to the right

and you’ve headed out way, way too far

With your blinkers on hiding the light

but angels aren’t supposed to hate

Based on bullshit that they read

And the more I watch you eat that fear

The more you feel dead to me..

The more I watch you feed that fear

The more I’m seeing red..

I’ve tried to get my head around

How bizarrely you have changed

And don’t think I’m the only one

Who finds it really strange

That this easy going party head

Is spouting all this hate

But like them I’m done with trying

cuz I just cannot relate

To that fever that you’re sick with

It detests the likes of me

Cuz this ‘leftie unwashed scumbag’

Maintains the reality

That ‘they’ ain’t all out to get us

There’s no believe or die

This war on faith is in your head

So I guess this is goodbye..

So you surround yourself with ‘angels’

And fly the flag of the far right

You’ve headed out way, way too far

With your blinkers on hiding the light

You traded your imagination

for bullshit that you read

And the more I watch you eat that fear

The more you feel dead to me..

And the more I watch you feed that fear

The more I’m seeing red..